Experience

You think you are moving along a kind of vertical axis gaining height, like climbing a hanging string, but you also think you are looping out to new things while always coming back to the axis, like you are following a coil touching the string, and you move out to experience new things and back in some ways to where you were but you are always a little higher than before. But then there comes a moment, that you begin to see (even though you have known it all along) that the coil and string are not vertical but are instead shaped into a circle. So that for all your swerving back and forth you are not moving upward but instead around, backward really, backward into your own life.